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Human
Loneliness has replaced an abundance of intimacy and personal connection. Sad about the empty space on my bed that used to be a warm indentation. Pressed by my person who held my secrets and knew my limitations.Is part of being human owning those feelings of loss and desperation? Will my children grow up to be…
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This Time
This time I’m choosing me and I’m letting you go.Releasing my grip on a future that I’ll never know.My stubbornness to keep fighting for you stunted our ability to grow. This time I’m making a promise to myself.I promise to reclaim my mental health.Accept this reality and play the cards I’ve been dealt. This time…
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Believe
I believe you, there’s no score. You can stop telling me now. I don’t hear you anymore. Your actions speak out loud. You said you understood. Said you’d make the change.I believed that you would. That repetition is insane. Believe me baby I know. It’s hard to look in the mirror,When self esteem is low. And…
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Patterns
If I can just recognize my patterns,I can fix the things that matter.My thoughts are like the mad hatter, Presenting riddles without an answer. I need to face my history with tact,It’s terrifying uncovering that mask.Wrestling with the trauma of my past,What happened? Why am I compelled to act? My feet hurt tap dancing around…
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Ego and Me
I think I fucking need some couples therapy, I don’t know why were together, my ego and me. Who said it was cool to live with me rent free? You’re not needed anymore, it’s time for you to leave. You’ve done enough damage to my evolution.I’m done with your unsolicited persecution.I want a divorce, a…
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Echoes
Screaming out in anguish, do I want someone to notice?There’s a hole in my soul where there once was a beautiful canvas,And the sound that returns to me is lonely but cathartic. I recognize what I’ve done to create those gaping holes,I keep shouting out hoping that I’m not hearing echoes. Why is it so…
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Sister
I wasn’t supposed to be here, my parents only wanted two.So here I am, bittersweet about the sister I never knew.It’s a backwards pulse of life, a child dying before you do.I’m proud of my parents, must’ve been difficult to push through.My eldest sister began to look after me, she was seven, I was…
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Shared Friends
Man, I love ya’ll, being there for us right up to the end.You know who you are, my people, my beloved shared friends. Our personalities couldn’t be a more perfect blend.Around ya’ll I could be myself, with no need to pretend. Our highs and our lows were on full display.1080p, hdmi, 3D and 4k.”Adventure time” in…
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The Ride
You bought expensive tickets with emotions unbeknownst to you.You jumped on blindly, ignoring and denouncing intrinsic values.A ride on the love train is barreling towards the two of you.Who cares right? When you’re in love, that’s what you do. It’s whimsical, the aura that encompasses every moment.In the beginning it’s wonderful and you want everyone…
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Drive to Be Driven
Not my favorite drive, southbound on Interstate five.Cruise control locked just under eighty five.Temperature outside is close to ninety five.Volume dialed up, wishin the music was live.Thinkin what’s ahead, not what I left behind. Four windows down in door panels.Singin out loud, vocal chords strangled.Proud of myself for what I just handled.The life I used…
Beginning at the End
Laugh hard, Love harder and never be afraid to sacrifice who you are for who you will become.
Beginning at the End 