Beginning at the End

I’m just absolutely fuckin done.I’ve had it, I’m over it. Done with the half-wits. Done with their bullshit.I’m allergic to gossip.Miss me with that shit.Won’t participate in it.

You feel like you are all alone.Your frequency runs higher.That no one ever has your back.Your temperature’s on fire.

My comfort zone is a place I played in for 30 plus years. Stepping out of it is a trip, it made me switch gears. Didn’t think I had it in me but I’m facing my fears.I listened with my eyes and she saw me with her ears.

What if we met when we were older and more evolved.When we understood more of what love involved. Uncovered our traumas and accepted our flaws. After we developed our compassion and our resolve.

Breathe… I’m turning something so routine into a ritual. Noticing the feeling when my lungs fill, making that habitual. Closing my eyes and letting my mind create the visuals.I want to tap into that part of me and be more spiritual.

Forever in the shadows  Or at least that’s how it feels  Sitting at the crossroads  With the Devil on my heels  Choosing the right strategy  Is proving to be hard  Fighting off the demon’s whisper  With my mental guard  Rising to the challenge  Without knowing what’s at stake  Trying to find allies  When it’s hard…

I’m drawn to your energy You are all that will matterThe higher the frequencyThe less likely I’ll shatter The more emotional you areThe more near I want to beThe reason for it happeningWe call it Empathy I have mental boundariesI align them with my soulBut the more that you are feelingThe more I need control…