Beginning at the End

 

It's been a lonely road, but I'm proud to admit,
I've turned a corner and stopped givin' a shit,
It took me a while, but now the flame is lit,
It won't be put it out now, in me there is no quit. 
Gave myself permission to live life how I see fit.
I've accepted the fact that forever is a trick. 
I won't be fooled again, never, not even a little bit.

For such a long time I didn't choose myself. 
Stored my personal growth above the highest shelf.
Never leaned on anyone but now I ask for help.
Pushed 300 pounds not focused on my health.
Recognized how I feel is the only real wealth.

I'm still super dad and would do anything for my adult kids.
Rediscovery, self realization, pulling off the covers, blowing off the lid.
Comfortable by myself and confidently safe in my own skin.
There's plenty of love and compassion in my world for everyone to win.

Emotional tectonic plates had shifted.
The weight off my shoulders been lifted.
All the good things in my life I've listed.
Practicing gratitude for all that I've been gifted.

I'm paving the road to my recovery. 
When I was a kid I loved me some of me.
Keep practicing my awareness and chivalry.
Live my life on my terms honoring the future me.

Beginning to see the beauty in all the little things.
Living in the moment, being present not afraid to dance and sing.
Mastering my emotions, snuffing out the fire that my ego brings.
Letting go and surrendering, stamping an end to my suffering.

Pulled my personality out of my shadow. 
In the deep end no longer, wading in the shallows.
Waiting for my mind and heart to finish their battle,
I know it's almost over cuz my soul feels less hollow.

I'm not out of the woods by any means.
But I'm certainly encouraged by the progress that my family's seen. 
Drifting hard into that corner fearlessly. 
I'll be there soon, I know the world can't wait for me.

 

 

 

 

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